Breaking the Mold, Finding Myself
Whenever I’m back home or talk to someone I haven’t talked to in many years, they ask: “Why Alaska?”
And then, usually: “But why did you stay?”
So, here’s why:
After graduating from Miami University, I knew I didn’t want the expected path. I come from a high-profile family and my family name carries weight across Ohio, known in circles far wider than our hometown…. and with that came expectations…. I love them deeply, but growing up under that spotlight taught me to crave something earned, not granted. A lot of people I know followed the same trajectory, taking the nepotism path that was laid out for them. And while there’s nothing inherently wrong with that, I knew it wasn’t for me.
I wanted something real. Something earned. Something that didn’t have my last name stamped on it before I even showed up. So, I joined AmeriCorps, signed up to work with at-risk youth, and moved to Alaska without ever visiting. No preview. No plan B. Just a gut feeling that this place would stretch me in ways nothing else could. Just a calling I couldn’t ignore. Alaska didn’t coddle me. It challenged me. Humbled me. And eventually, it healed me.
I was only supposed to be here a year.
But that year shaped me.
Alaska stripped away everything I thought I knew about myself and handed me something far more valuable: truth. The kind of truth that shows up in silence. In service. In survival. I’ve faced near-death experiences here, storms that didn’t care who I was or where I came from but in that rawness, I found moments of deep isolation and clarity. I found freedom.
And somewhere in that process, I started to feel something deeper awaken in me: a responsibility. As a Jew, I’ve always carried a quiet understanding that we are called to engage in tikkun Olam: to help repair what is broken in this world. Here in Alaska, working with elders, rural communities, and systems often overlooked, I began to live that obligation in a more embodied way. Service stopped being just something I did; it became part of who I am.
I’m a corn-fed Ohioan at heart; I’m a Redhawk, not a Buckeye but still proudly raised in the Midwest. Ohio gave me my grit; Alaska gave me my voice. Here, I found purpose. I found community. I found parts of myself I never knew were missing.
I stayed because the land spoke to something ancient in me; a voice older than memory, like my soul had been here before. In Jewish mysticism, we talk about makom, the sacred place, not just as geography, but as divine alignment. Here, in this vast and humbling land, I felt that alignment. I began to believe that certain places call to certain souls, not by accident, but by purpose. The work I do here feels like more than service; it feels like uncovering holy sparks (nitzotzot) hidden in overlooked corners of the world. I found peace in places I didn’t expect, and strength I didn’t know I had. I stayed because the person I became here… is someone I’m proud to be, someone more in tune with my purpose, and closer to the sacred rhythm of creation itself.
So yeah; I chose Alaska.
But staying? That was the real decision.
And I’d make it again a thousand times over.
To Mom and Dad:
Thank you for giving me the foundation to dream beyond what was handed to me. Your love, your sacrifices, and your unwavering belief in me, even when I chose a path far from the one laid out, means more than words can say. You may not have chosen Alaska for me, but you raised me with the courage to choose it for myself. And for that, I’ll always be grateful.
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